Another hour sounds really longgggf-2017-07-27T17:28:36Z.txt
Another hour sounds really longgggf I feel a little bit sad to leave. I mean I'm falling asleep
At the time my mother knew, more than I did, that she was not going…-2017-09-12T02:54:28Z.txt
At the time my mother knew, more than I did, that she was not going to be able to share many more
with me as she
passed away from breast cancer when I was 13 years old. It was the first time, standing with other
bowed and covered heads, that we looked at each other and cried. Held each other and knew that there was
time that we could have to share. That the notes for health that were going into the wall were not going
God no matter how powerful was not going to be able to save her or me from what was going to happen
moment that I felt that I could finally see what was coming. The year of falling, sinking into the
eventually never waking up. In that moment at the wall together it was ok, it was gods plan, it was a
Text stacy about waxing and eyebrows-2017-12-25T03:05:19Z.txt
Text stacy about waxing and eyebrows
Text Stephanie about facial
Text rosie about retainer
Text taxis about haircut for end of January
Type brown essays
Get ears pierced
120 W 28th St, New York, NY, USA-2018-06-04T19:05:42Z.txt
120 W 28th St, New York, NY, USA
Find something to do on Sunday
Go through clubs that you want to join
Took a nice moment to think about mom and temple and what it used…-2018-09-09T23:59:32Z.txt
Took a nice moment to think about mom and temple and what it used to be like to celebrate Rosh Hashanah.
I’m sad but
happy. Love you and thinking about you. I remember the days of Harry Potter behind my seder, and mom
wearing pearls and
smelling vaguely like hairspray and her perfume. And I remember her outfits and the shoes that she would
perfectly. The fact that we would usually sit with grandma Roberta and my Jacob. That she would always
have tissues in
her purse and we would sometimes sneak a mint when we were starving as we headed into hour three of
services. That you
would sleep and only sometimes wake up for the sermon. Love you.
Adventure log: Prague-2018-10-20T23:18:02Z.txt
Adventure madeline is on the loose. She is not taking no for an answer as she finds friends in cool
places and people
that sell weed. It is a strange world. One with crazy drunk people and David Cross just passes you on
Madeline was on a mission. Be happy again. It was a difficult one. One with many memories lost and new
Ones found. She
has a sidekit. Rosario is my best friend and pet rabbit. But she doesn’t poop as much. She is also slow
Anyway adventure madeline was in Prague talking to a loser about philosophy she turned around and went
out to look with
the popular kids.
There wasn’t any pot to be found. Until they asked a nice girl at a new bar and she showed them the way.
Then they got High
And all was well. The end.
Ask dad if we have a list of the people that came to moms funeral…-2018-10-21T16:14:19Z.txt
Ask dad if we have a list of the people that came to moms funeral and see what he thinks about
sending them a note to
send me a story
Adventure log: Amsterdam-2018-10-24T16:36:06Z.txt
Adventure log: Amsterdam
It was a lovely day
That started at ney nearly 7:16 ndjdjbsmkfnnfjdjxnndjdjjdbsbska
I'm sorry I am high lol as ballz
There once was a young girl named madeline
Who loves pararegiamorjiano cheese and
Going to a chorus line and mom holding up the tank top and telling me I'd grow into the smallest size
Heeliyinf back and forth through her office hallway while she talked on the phone
Looking at her globe
Her typing with Nails and how fast of a typist she was
I remember she really was special Period
It's the hardest part that she would have been the best grandma because grandma Berta and my kids won't
Why is that
How about I remember when seriously being in bathrooms together in Disney
The smell when I go back reminds me of her
I guess so does being there her Minnie Mouse jacket
That I donated. No it's been five years. But I'm not ok for ten.
What else? I remember Eddie and Seth wrestling at my pirate party
In the playroom and I thought Seth was going to die
That was before Eddie became reliably an Eddie
I am very tired and I want to go to sleep. I think if i go to sleep right now then I would never get to
take off my
Wait mom memories
Mom picking me up at bak and being in her full work outfit in the waiting area and her smiling from her
phone when I got
I was her favorite person to see, everyone else was not as special. I don't have that with anyone else
in that way
Dairy free ice cream
Dairy free cheese
69 Brown St. Box 5551
Providence, RI 02912
How do you not break people when they find out?-2019-02-12T22:48:28Z.txt
How do you not break people when they find out?
The last victim
Most buddhist book of the Hebrew bible-2019-04-24T19:38:55Z.txt
Most buddhist book of the Hebrew bible
5 reasons that it doesn’t work, is this similar or different from what you have heard happiness
described as in your
Not too many bounds that they are not allowed in
Tension between striving for more and contentment for what is
Layman terms - position in a life story and then move from there
When happiness is conidtional, are you postponing your joy
Do you ignore your happy self future prospects
Between life experience and theory
Even more important: never underestimate a volcano -- for humans cannot…-2019-05-04T01:23:42Z.txt
Even more important: never underestimate a volcano -- for humans cannot tame them and one of these large
could happen any day, at any time.
With the looming threat of eruption, the volcano stands against the horizon as a grim warning of what is
to come. There
is no way to predict when the threat will strike, only a way to study its movements and hope for a
First hour costco
Pillow case transfer paper coloring book and fabric pens
Primer tinted eyes concealer blush bronzer-2019-08-09T19:42:59Z.txt
Primer tinted eyes concealer blush bronzer
Primer with hands
Squishy for moisturizer pea size
Exfoliate three times a week
Base eyes - one color all over, shape crease one color up
Edge of eye again darker
Edge of eye bottom darkest
Sparkle from inner eye to middle color
Crease in again to blur
Sweep away bottom with setting powder
Brown on underneath top eye line
Edge of eye
Inner eye corner
Concealer eyes dots, down and out
Bronzer cheekbone top of face, nose hat, bottom of face
Start where most intense
Blush two fingers away top of apples of cheeks
From: Marsha Miller MD
Sent: 11/15/2019 10:57 AM
To: Madeline Greenberg
Subject: RE: reached out to Jayden
Good questions---would take it about the same time everyday---the levels are more consistent.
Would avoid excessive alcohol while on this medicine--one glass of wine or one beer once or twice a week
should be fine.
Was thinking about medications Madeline---the Citalopram is a good choice though it has some
interactions with some
antibiotics ----was thinking Prozac--Fluoxetine might be good choice as it doesn't have those issues and
you won't feel
bad if you miss a dose once in awhile.
If agreeable to you--would like to prescribe Fluoxetine 20mg--have you take 1/2 tablet (10 mg) in the
tomorrow for the next 5 days--if you are feeling well--then you can go up to the whole tablet after
The side effects some can notice are mild headache or nausea. Those usually will dissapate as your body
Expectation, be respectful v goal measurable, check off
Perform my show in December
Run the 10K in disney
Apply to summer internships
Grow by 15 COB in spring
Go over the different days of recruitment and what events exist throughout the year
Pick members for my recruitment committee
Positive language around recruitment
Clarify use as a resource - first chapter what each position is, why you ran, positional goals
Attend every meeting
Folder, doc, committee, what you expect from each person
Write what your committee does - task and expectations
Ask for help from members on committee
One on one, tell Sarah, call into CRSB, need to have people that work
Go through calendar events
Notes - 11|17-2019-11-17T23:15:39Z.txt
Notes - 11/17
too casual physically
Not always tense, really happening
Time to execute physical actions: moment of recognition
More specific handshake
Various modes of listening - all the time
Don’t slur words, articulate
Stakes within given circumstances. Dancing.
Moving - be aware of the people around you
Sadness is a white bird-2020-01-17T19:13:01Z.txt
Sadness is a white bird
Cliff and Diana,
I hope that coming off of the holiday rush has gone well! I just wanted to send a note that I ended up
getting some new
earrings that I’m super excited about! They are a slightly more mature step in terms of that jewelry
that I usually
wear. Sending love your way!!
Cab - history - more or less
American puppet modernism
I don’t know how I feel. I like that they mentioned that you can choose…-2020-02-02T04/37/01Z.txt
I don’t know how I feel. I like that they mentioned that you can choose your body. I like that there was
a finality To
it. That when you know you know. I like that there was love but that that wasn’t enough to really be
forever. Because as
much as having forever could be wonderful it’s not going to be able to be enough for an eternity. I
would do what tahani
did and I would learn how to do everything. I would do everything. I want to skydive. I want to run a
marathon. I want
to fall in love. I want to act. I want to read more books. I want to talk to people that make me feel
smarter. I want to
learn as much as I can. I want to have time to write my play. I want to find people that make me
happier. I want to live
near Seth. I want to I don’t know. But this is a start. I want a lot of things. That should be good than
anything. I was told not to let my feelings out. To just talk about the things that make me happy and
not the things
that were too hard. I don’t know. There’s a lot here. But I finally have wants. For the first time. In a
long time. I’m
glad I wrote some of this down. I need to go to bed. Goodnight. 💕
I love you but I dont want you. What does that mean. There is a sense…-2020-04-24T01/45/22Z.txt
I love you but I dont want you. What does that mean. There is a sense of respect. There is a sense that
there are so few
people in the world that matter. That continue to matter even as I start to realize that the person that
mattered actually doesn’t. Being smart is not the same as being motivated. So what about someone that is
motivated? I love them. I want them to love me. Not to want me. I want to be close to them. For them to
be proud of me,
I want to prove that I deserve their pride. I want them to see me and introduce me as their own, to
share things with
me, to know that I will get their jokes. That is so inherently different from wanting someone.
I do want someone. I want her and I want to be with her. Thinking about being with her does make me sad,
because it is
not going to happen again, but that doesn’t make me not want her. She makes me feel this longing.
Touching her made me
want to touch her more. I wanted her to find me beautiful, to not be able to stop being with me. To not
want to leave.
And she didn’t. She told me that I was beautiful, that I deserved to be lauded for the work that I had
done. That she
was proud, that the people around me were proud. And in the dark. During the movie, I wanted to make her
blush. I wanted
to hold her hand. I wanted to do more than hold her hand. That is wanting. That is desire for someone.
lustingly, wanting. When I think about her I feel like I could reach out and she would be there again
and there would be
nothing better in the world.
It is not that. It is disgust if they were there. Not at them. At myself. At the touching, at the
physical becomes corrupted. There is a sense of disappointment. Of general distrust, loss. So no. I do
not want them,
but I want what they have. I want someone smart enough to write a book. I want to have two children to
work through potty training. I want to be so proud of the work that my partner did that I use her as a
and proudly. I want us both to teach at the same school, read the same books, tell each other what we
did during the day
that fascinated us. That made us feel alive. I didn’t find that yet. But I found part. For the first
time, I found the
part that makes sense even before I have to think about it.
I’m feeling very alone all of a sudden.-2020-11-23T04/39/41Z.txt
I’m feeling very alone all of a sudden.
A sci fi world.-2020-12-01T12/16/45Z.txt
A sci fi world.
And I was their god. But my name was Natalie. But they had museums about me. The world was disney themed
because I liked
it so much.
There was a cute boy. But they found me out because my money said United States. He saw my id. He didn’t
believe that it
was me. He didn’t know what to do.
The Mickey Mouse ride was like the haunted mansion.
The museum was like moma.
The data body-2020-12-10T11/25/42Z.txt
The data body
What exists only in the virtual world? No - look to science fiction. Die in the matrix then die in real
Star Trek episode I thought she was only in my mind
Ghost in the machine. What is the soul, the self if you can open up the brain?
The neural net is of human of machine. It performs functions that we can point to as human but in
contents that are
inhuman by nature. Made by us for us. Iterations of the original tools that propose alternative
We imagine the not yet here in two ways - the utopic and the dystopic.
Think Jose Munoz for utopia. The means of emergent strategy. Constantly looking to a queered future of
enables the conceptions of the data body to aggregate in a mindset of positivity. As in - algorithms are
humans. Humans can plan for the pain and demise of others for best uses of power. Or there can be an
active attempt to
imagine a queer futurity. Where the creation of the future is not yet here always.
But we fall to dystopia because that is what is known. That is the present. We are carefully situated in
allow us to break from dystopic practices if we so desire, but we are cycling through a society that
builds bodies for
their personal gain rather than in order to support inspire owe others.
Cylons, terminator, ghost in the machine, neon genesis evangelion —
These are examples of the data body and the human body in conversation. They combine the utopia and
merging of the human with circuitry creates the possible, the cyborg. The infinite reinterpretation of
the body as
natural and singular through the addition of what we have made.
It is the glitches, the ghosts, the angels that remind us, however, that there is a present. And while
we should be
actively attempting to create a utopia future, we can’t forget that it must be queered.
So these failures, the malfunctions, the appearing loss of control, though it is the manifestation of
the new and not yet understood, perhaps it also represents the possible reminder of humanness at its
Why we are reminded over and over that San Junipero terminator is human. She is base us. She is base we.